Hey thanks for your words of support Painretreat, personally i am just worried of being told my reason isn't good enough or that i am not ill enough ,but i would have to wonder then, to be turned down from a club or the gov telling me i'm not ill enough for something that has proven to help me would just be very hurtful to deal with, but i do have an apt the day before my birthday with my doctor, I've spoken to her before about it, but she told me to try these synthetic cannabis pills that frankly didn't help me at all i suspect it was because of the .05mg dosage they assumed would help me, so I'll head to my doctors on the Friday after this one, and see if i can talk her into letting me apply for the legal cannabis use ,she is very easy going, so i hopefully won't have too many troubles getting permission, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed for now haha, i wonder if having multiple symptoms would help my chances ,but as per growing, i was actually considering asking if and when i receive my card if i could choose to do so, seems to me paying an enormous amount for an ounce compared to cultivating a few nice plants would definitely keep my wallet a bit fuller, but i suppose i won't count my chikens before the hatch lol :thumbsup: :rasta: