Quote Originally Posted by devils dream
thanks for the encouragement, i have also been on prozac and although i haven't beaten my depression it no longer beats me, i have recieved help but i cant seem to break through to myself again like somehow i lost myself and now i dont know how to get it back, i'm thankful for all the great things i have in my life especially my three kids but i'm letting them down, my confidence doesnt just prevent me from doing things i want but also from doing activities with my children, i suffer panick attacks (not very often now) but when i'm in certain situations i just cant cope with it and so the cycle continues, if i force myself to try something which i dont feel confident about i end up feeling panicked and it puts me off wanting to try any thing that may even possible bring about a panick attack.
i know confidence is a state of mind but i've been through so much and came out the other side surely i should be more confident now than ever?

I've been there, I think every human being in this world has felt depressed, We all have our scars...

You may think this is weird saying this over a message board, But when I was 5 I was molested by two teens male and female that lived next door...

I lost all my innocence at age 5... I dont think the pain or wounds like ever heal... and for the longest time I thought I did something wrong or it was my fault.

But what I have come to realize... Hurt people hurt people... Those same teens that molested me where being molested by there own parents.

There is evil in this world... but there is also alot of wonder.
LazySmoking420 Reviewed by LazySmoking420 on . HOW CONFIDENT ARE YOU? At times in my life i have been totally confident within myself i'd go out and dance the night away without a care of what others thought, but now if i walk into a crowded environment i feel stupid like i want to leave and i dont know where it came from, i had 4 years of utter shit in my life abusive relationships,depression, moving house too many times and having three kids will all contribute to my issues i know but what worries me most is will i ever regain the confidence i once had? i Rating: 5