i was in the same exact situation except i was younger and my mom was against anti-depressants such as paxil. she flat out said "ohhhh no! you're not going on more drugs!" so i had to basically deal with it. i didn't even know there was a name for what i was experiencing. i did lots of research, found out i was having panic attacks. i read everything i could about them. eventually i got fed up and when i felt a panic attack coming on i would be like "screw you panic attack, you're not getting me again." it sounds stupid but it worked. less then a week later i didn't get panic attacks anymore. once you realize it's in your head and it's possible to get better it's so much easier. good luck