Hey im a 16 year old male (currently blazed off my ass) and i think im going crazy. I've been smoking weed almost everyday for the past year and i've done many other drugs along the way, way more than i ever expected to. In the past year i've done xanax a few times, salvia 10x alot, acid once, shrooms twice (no hallucinations, just a horrible mind fuck), DXM twice, X twice, a few painkillers, and of course alcohol on occasion. When i first started smoking weed i never thought i was going to try anything else, but as i started to read more and more about drugs I became more aware of all the lies surrounding them. I only try drugs that i research on erowid.com and decide are safe enough to try. Well anyways, lately i've been thinking alot about life and i've come to the conclusion that it is completley meaningless. I believe in the big bang, evolution, ect.. and i consider myseklf a rationalist. The problem is that i dont want to be this way anymore. I want to be like everyone else and see a purpose in life and enjoy every moment of it but I cant. No matter how much I tell myself that life is meaningful, its like im stuck in this mindset and can't get out of it. I dont care about school anymore, i dont really care about my family anymore, i dont care about my own life anymore, or anything for that matter. I love my family, and i want them to be happy, but being in this mindset has caused me to lose value in everything i once held dear. I used to care about school, and making my family proud, but now all i care about is my own confusion about reality. I dont know if im depressed, as i dont feel sad, i just feel empty, less creative, emotionless, and bored with everything. I take 100mg of zoloft everyday but it doesnt seem to help. Its really hard to have to wake up and go to school everyday when i think its all meaningless. All i want to do is sit aroudn and smoke weed and enjoy my life, instead of actually working to achieve something that will eventually be non-existant. Nothing in my life seems real anymore, i am just an observer. Does anyone else feel like this? Could it be the drugs that are doing this to me? (the last time i did anything other than weed was about a month and a half ago-shrooms and; but i still feel this way) I really would like to just stick to weed from now on and see if that helps anything. well sorry for writing so much and thanks for reading. PEACE
Kurupt3Z3 Reviewed by Kurupt3Z3 on . How fucked up am i? Hey im a 16 year old male (currently blazed off my ass) and i think im going crazy. I've been smoking weed almost everyday for the past year and i've done many other drugs along the way, way more than i ever expected to. In the past year i've done xanax a few times, salvia 10x alot, acid once, shrooms twice (no hallucinations, just a horrible mind fuck), DXM twice, X twice, a few painkillers, and of course alcohol on occasion. When i first started smoking weed i never thought i was going to Rating: 5