Well ok so heres what happened we ended up talking last night on the phone, i did end up drinking the vodka(like 7 shots tho) i didnt hurt myself at all, then today i walked down to the school so i could see her i went over to her house we talked and cried and well we broke up she really didnt want to but i pretty much made her,but before we left i asked her if i waited for her if she would wait for me and she said yes, so basically we are broken up but we just need time to let things like mend because what i did was really fucked up and i regret it sooooo much, but she still loves me and i still love her, im never doing that again