1st get off the Hydroxyzine
2nd get off the Propranolol

Taper off them or you will wind up in the ER.

Get another Doctor becasue whomever is giving you all that together is killing you! its too much.

You're going to need a few different strains to help you.

Simply speanking Indicas are better for those long nights and days when you're over the top and need to calm down. BUT being stuck to your couch for the rest of your life isnt going to help either. You're going to need a heavy, medium and light smoke - think opiate type of feeling. you dont want the mental mindfuck stimulating stuff. Mellow, easy, is the key.

Hit the seed stores online. search and read and learn. Look up every indica you can find.

Strains to try - all indica dom.

Ice or White Ice, Nepal Kush, Taskenti, papaya

for me each is a little different.