Quote Originally Posted by GreenZero
Its the woman.

Get wit it in the Gym and then get wit a girl.

You'll feel at least a little better.

Sorry about your father passing. Give that stuff time.


- GZ
I hit the gym often, weights, yoga, pylotechnics, the works. I'm personality A when it comes to accomplishing goals that are measureable, I simply won't quit until I met them.

As for women, I'm sick of them. Just a waste of time for nothing, they only want you when the times are good, but when the times are bad, they run away. I'll fend for myself, learn to love my hand and pick-up some slut at a club, fuck her like an animal and be done with it. I'm not even that type of guy to pick-up chicks like that, I'd prefer being with one girl with soul and substance but I fully understand now why some guys become assholes and I'm inclined to give them a pat on the back for it. I put all my heart and soul into her, only to be betrayed in the end, at the worst possible time. Fuck that.

I simply don't understand how quitting smoking would help. I feel like complete shit when I'm sober, I'm uncomfortable and all the pain comes back. Cannabis takes it away, causes me to smile, laugh, but at the same time, it's counterproductive in some way. I can't even tell if the cannabis is controlling me or I am controlling the cannabis the line is so blurred. I been functioning well professionally and academically for so long despite my high intake.

LOC, I feel your pain and I'm sure you have more than I. The only difference between you and me is I don't want to die, I almost lost my life, knowing that feeling makes you not want to die.

Part of the problem is all my close friends are quitting toking one by one or moved away. Now I have no one. Meeting new people is hard as well, I'm shy, I don't connect well with people and sometimes I'm simply a prick by nature. I definitely have to find myself some nice toker friends. Wish I could enjoy a toke with you!

Reading all about your problems made me realize I guess I don't have it half-bad. I just need to stop having this shitty feeling!