First off, YOU LUCKY BASTARD ! You want to feel better. Stop.

I could spin you a tale of woe that would make even your dog cry. If you were me you would just go ahead a shoot yourself before they knew you had a gun. They took all of mine. Busted, out of work most of the year. Suicide is an everyday thought but All I have left is my Samurai swords. You know how painfull it is to commit Hari Cari ? I don't yet. I could do this all day but you would only feel worse. Or I would. I get to somke very little the last 2 years. It made me saine, normal is insaine for me.

In an insaine world the saine man must surely seem insaine. The whole world is crazy and insaine.

I would like to take a moment and cry and pray for you and the loss of your father. Losing a loved is never right.

I lost my best friend in the world a few years ago before I got busted by my nephew. You know how long it takes to get over losing a loved one ? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------NEVER !

I see your problem as you are not sharing. When I had a good friend to smoke with and share with the world was our oyster no matter how poor or bad things got. Now I feel worse than you. I no longer have anyone to smoke with and that leads down a dark road. YOU are on it now. When I do smoke by myself I do feel the way you do. I am not an out going person and don't make friends easy. Most of all one you can smoke with or trust. Do not smoke alone !!!!!

My wife blaims me for all our problems and untill I find work all is lost.

I have worked for 30 years but drop the ball because of bad times. Let the punishment fit the crime.

Out of 4 brothers I am number 3. My parents loved me and helped me. I was looked up to.

Now I am a discrace to them and known as the village pothead who grows dope and poisons children. Even though I never sold a thing. I am part of the terrorist effort to bring the US down because I had some drugs I grew myself for myself.

This is the best part, My Nephew who was busted dealing cocaine and had a felony already busted me but I was not enough for the cops so he busted the coke dealer too. That's a death sentence. Coke dealer and his bro are trying to find him.

My Nephew ran off and was forced to join the Army. He is now in Iraq and he will be known as a war hero and veteran. Not the back stabbing scum of the Earth he is.

Doesn't that brighten up your day.

Sorry to go on like this. It is time to practice with my swords. A more elegant weapon from a more civilized age. Exercise helps clear my mind too. The arts of the Samuari have help some but not enough.

Dude I wish I could come smoke and laugh with you. It's what you need.

Oh I have not laughed in over 2 years till I got to burn one kronic and watch Pineapple express. See it with some one. Oh, sorry about the first part.