Losing desire to do anything but smoke cannabis

[thcbongman]

I feel I'm losing all desire to do anything. I work full-time and go to school part-time and I been meeting my obligations. In this sense, I'm motivated, along with keeping in shape.

Other than these 3 goals, I lost all desire to do anything else. I been wanting to hang around friends less. I have no desire to pursue a girlfriend. All I want to do is sit there, veg out and smoke cannabis all day long, forget about all this pain I have inside. This past weekend, other than maintaining the house and working in the gym, I found myself smoking pot all myself, all day long.

I think I am going insane as well. I been lightings bowls, bongs, joints of high-powered cannabis approximately every half an hour when I get my opportunities. I find myself laughing in the mirror screaming I'm a junkie. The worst part is I don't give a fuck anymore. Well I sorta do, but at some point, I just want to let go and live like one of those potheads in a van down by the river. Just not giving a fuck about anything and nothing.

thcbongman Reviewed by thcbongman on 11-17-2008. Losing desire to do anything but smoke cannabis I feel I'm losing all desire to do anything. I work full-time and go to school part-time and I been meeting my obligations. In this sense, I'm motivated, along with keeping in shape. Other than these 3 goals, I lost all desire to do anything else. I been wanting to hang around friends less. I have no desire to pursue a girlfriend. All I want to do is sit there, veg out and smoke cannabis all day long, forget about all this pain I have inside. This past weekend, other than maintaining Rating: 5

[GoldenGraham84]

well, step one is complete: you've identified the problem.
you recognize these desires as unhealthy and/or unproductive.
can't really offer any help but to tell you to get help.
also, a request... don't do anything more to give us "potheads" a worse name. don't perpetuate our stereotype.

[leadmagnet]

Sounds more like depression than addiction.

Stop toking and get some counseling.

[GreenZero]

Had a similar experience when I got broken up with.

Just have to take it one step at a time.

The gym thing is good tho'. Do that shit.

[Hollywierdtoker]

Sounds more like depression than addiction.

Stop toking and get some counseling.

Seconded. Depression brought on by your physical pain I presume? Or they could just be happening together. Switch to hash or edibles.

[kshchrn831]

Sup man

Yeah, it is a very good thing that you have admitted your weakness and problem.

But, dont look at it as such a horrible problem, I have been through the same boring, strung out, confusing period like you are having. You should slowly realize that it is normal, and if you think that it is NOT normal, it is because your inner ego is fighting your actions, thinking that it is not 'cool' or normal, or sane. You are perfectly fine, but just moving into a different life style. Life is not always happy and clear and a big smile on your face. Sometimes there is a puzzle to put together, and that puzzle right now, is yourself.

So what I would suggest you do, is:

- Find your true self. Find enlightenment. In some sense, you are on the right path.
- Find more activities that stimulate your mind and your body.. Maybe a book, or just go walking around, get some fresh air.
-Maybe find a particular topic and just research the hell out of it, knowledge is always healthy.

Keep your head up, and dont let anyone else TELL you what you are.
Always be true to yourself, and dont be afraid to question yourself. Where there are questions, there are answers, and where there are answers, there is valuable lessons.

Enough of my words for now..
Let us know if you would like/need any more advice man. :hippy:

[mysensiherb]

Lets hope it is a phase and that it passes. Ive gone through periods where ive been really depressed and didnt feel like doing anything. i actually just came out of one of my phases...jsut know that your life really isnt as bad as you make it out to be right now and that youll be feeling better in no time
...thats at least how im affected
hope you feel better

[TheGreenDragon]

I hate to just step into "thcbongman" thread. But I just had to thank "kshchrn831" for that good advice. Ive been fighting depression for a while now, and what he says rings true to me. Though I do understand how dificult it can be to acualy pot these remadies into practice. But it does sound like taking a break from the smoking. Ti sounds like it is counterproductive for you right now. Ive read that small amounts of THC can help, but alot only makes the symptoms worse.

[thcbongman]

I just don't know why I feel like this. It's not like my life is bad, other than the fact I lost my father recently and I'm still having trouble coming to terms with it. A woman who I loved left me not too long before it happened. Otherwise I have nothing wrong, I'm successful professionally and academically. I don't feel happiness anymore. I have zero confidence in myself despite having every reason to.

I'm sick of fighting to keep afloat, sane, faking I'm a little happy. Shit I haven't any semblance of happiness. I been deeply depressed before, but it's not like anything I'm experiencing right now. Part of me believes to let go and stop trying, I'm tired, I'm starting to slow down in my mind and physically, losing desire to have any fun and have contact with anyone.

You say always be true to yourself, but what is that? I don't feel like I been anything different other than being myself. I just can't feel happy other than when I light up a bowl. That's when my mind can finally relax. My mind is so screwed up, my thoughts becoming more nutty, isolated, arrogant and angry. I am currently in counseling, but it brought on these conclusions to fuck everything and live a life more simpler. I'm just tired of everything.

Thank you all for your words, it's very much appreciated.

[leadmagnet]

Switch to whiskey? Just kidding.