Just my advice, im no doctor. Research NLP. Its a form of programming your brain to work through cognitive learning skills. Its extremely powerful. A good hypnotherapist could calapse negative anchors through your past and install pleasant positive motivating triggers deep in your unconscience.
I believe that depression is a learn skill, and takes work. You can discover how you make yourself depressed, ie. make pictures of depressing things, and change the way you view these pictures and sounds. You can understand better how the brain works.
I believe therapists are misguided from school they teach you that your body is missing a chemical and needs to be replaced, or you were not loved as a child and its your parents fault. Or that anger dwells inside you and needs to come out. All of these do not help but only practices more depression.
Please look into Lucinda Bassett, she has a good start for you, maybe you can find her audio on limewire or something. I did.
If you learn NLP, you will become so confident that women will be attracted to you. Enough said. I do wish you the best and keep smokin. :jointsmile:
BB