I tried to explain myself and get another outside perspective/help. The reason im making another thread is because the last was extremely jumbled and I didnt feel I conveyed the right purpose of my thread. Someone hit upon it but let me re-iterate quickly.

After 3/4 days of once-daily smoking Im much better mentally and believe I can pull through whatever erks me with the help of like-minded and very intelligent individuals. *digression* Now, I just came up with this and feels it fits perfectly.

In my mind and displayed in the cliche of the Devil on one shoulder and God on ther other when in a pickled, I cant decide what to do. Instead of the cliche I have one of me knowingly and confident trying to emerge and just say it without thinking and the other wanting to run away, cry and go hide under some covers. I know what your thinking and most probably do have some doubt, but I just cant bring myself to the first option and spit it out. The only time Ive felt that confidence is when I was abusing anxiety meds. The thing is I think its my anxiety that is hindering me from the overcoming the dilemna.
I dread talking to a therapist or whatever their title is, but I know i need to for my sake. I dont want to come off like a drug seeker and on the other had i know i need to get it (or think i do). You decide and please please let me know.

Thanks for everything you guys are doing here with the knowledge, help, etc.
zihowie Reviewed by zihowie on . Critiques/Opinions very welcomed and encouraged I tried to explain myself and get another outside perspective/help. The reason im making another thread is because the last was extremely jumbled and I didnt feel I conveyed the right purpose of my thread. Someone hit upon it but let me re-iterate quickly. After 3/4 days of once-daily smoking Im much better mentally and believe I can pull through whatever erks me with the help of like-minded and very intelligent individuals. *digression* Now, I just came up with this and feels it fits Rating: 5