Just look at my name.

Everybodies got to fell some pain.
Everyones got to be caught out in the rain.
Everybodies got to feel like you feel today.

You are not alone ! I am where you are only older and have delt with what life gives me. Each day could be my last and by my own hand.

Do not try to be something your not. As my pastaway Grandma said. If your not happy then don't try to be just for others. You must find what makes you happy. Hydro growing is it for me but that's why I got in trouble.

You are too young to have so much pain. you need help that will not load you up with pills and you need an older mentor to help you see things can get better.

Peace young brother. When we are at the bottom it's only up from there.