You should seek medical attention as soon as you can... Your clinically depressed and believe me sitting around huffing herb when your depressed will only make it worse and freak you out more... I know you didnt want to hear that.. Let me state first and foremost Im a medical user and a recreational user.. I love and respect the herb...Cannabis, a lot of times will simply intensify whatever mood your in, it cannot rectify those kinds of problems... Take care of yourself, and try to get some help young man... 18 you should be beaming with life... Please try...Take it easy brother... d:hippy: