I havn't smoked for a while now. For a long time, I tried to increase my tolerance so I could have the amazing highs I had when I first started smoking. More recently, I just wasn't enjoy the highs all that much. And it just wasn't worth dealing with dry mouth, lips, and the constant worry of getting caught.

I'm not that heavy of a smoker. After some break I can still get crazy high. Think giggles. But something is different. My first highs felt like love. Literally. Exactly like love. I've never been able to get that since.

I was reading something yesterday, and here's the paraphrase of it: "Love is the feeling of extasy you feel when your personal boundaries expand and limitless posibilities appear."

You experience this kind of love with your partner if you are lucky. They say it doesn't last forever, and what's left later is a more relaxed caring love.

I guess this kind of love when being high lasted a couple months for me. I tried everything to get it back, but I can't.


I also liked to get high because of the crazy thoughts I had. They were really fucking crazy. I feel like I learned so much about myself and the world from it. But now it all just seems wierd. I no longer trust my thoughts when I'm high. I've pretty much learned everything I could learn from those crazy thoughts. Now all that's left is the thoughts that mess with my head.


What I have left when I smoke is like if my mind is switched off, since I don't trust it anymore. I've become a really lazy high person.



I guess this is kind of a goodbye. Mary Jane is no longer my love, but I hope she will remain a good life long friend. Also, I feel like I want to live more aggressively for a while. I want to test my outer limits.

P.S. Cann.com rocks
THClord Reviewed by THClord on . It's not just how high you get, but what high you get I havn't smoked for a while now. For a long time, I tried to increase my tolerance so I could have the amazing highs I had when I first started smoking. More recently, I just wasn't enjoy the highs all that much. And it just wasn't worth dealing with dry mouth, lips, and the constant worry of getting caught. I'm not that heavy of a smoker. After some break I can still get crazy high. Think giggles. But something is different. My first highs felt like love. Literally. Exactly like love. I've Rating: 5