Heh. Thanks for all the positive replies. i'm slowly weening myself from the boards. I only check them now when i get an email notification and i'll only be checking my email on lunch and after 5 pm.

I tend to be a touch dramatic. My wife has heart attacks when she hears "OH FUCK!!!" from my back room only to find out that all the fuss was over a paper cut or some totally stupid shit. Someday it'll be serious and she won't respond...

I've dealt with a few of my immediate issues and things are coming into a more realistic perspective. I need to be more attentive at work. I need to regain my short/mid term memory...i need to keep a calendar of important dates and events...and i need to restrict myself to maybe an hour a day to the boards...later in the evening if possible.

I'm not backing out of my original post. I do have a problem with cannabis consuming my every waking hour and i need to back off and get my ducks in a line. But coming on today to see all these kind words and seeing that i have stirred a few people made me realize that i have made a few friends here that share a very important common interest. You all have inspired me and i'm glad that i've inspired a few of you.

I have some self esteem and confidence issues in many aspects of my life. But on here and in my grow room i feel great. I feel like i have valuable input and i feel confident. and that's thanks to all of you.

I would really, truly like to meet my forum friends. I feel great when Stinky gives me a thumbs up. I laugh my ass off when Dutch spits one of his classic one liners. Every time i see a white van i think "hey maybe that's image Reaper." D4Twamp...i'm just getting to know you...but your user name is always stuck in my head...i don't know why...but i'm always saying to myself "D 4 TWAMP" it has a rhythm to it that seems infectious...weird...i know.

If there ever comes a day when everyone has a picnic or whatever...PLEASE let me know and i will be there with open arms and handfuls of buds for you all. And if a get together is a real possibility, let me know what i can do to help. it would mean the world to me.

anyways...i'm getting long winded here...

This is my hobby. everyone needs a hobby. I just can't let it control me.

a HUGE thanks to everyone who responded with encouragement. I will be around a bit less as i try to save it for my true free time and I will be taking a break from smoking for a few months (it's been 36 hours so far!).

Peace, Love, and all that other stuff that means the world but is often thrown around like a petty catch phrase.

Skeet.

PS - this was in my news paper today:

Marijuana smoker gets 30 days in jail

LOCKPORT ?? Danny Chapman, of Goodrich Road, Clarence, says he has been smoking marijuana for 30 years and doesn??t plan to stop now ?? even if it means going to jail.

That??s where City Judge William J. Watson sent him Monday, sentencing Chapman, 52, to 30 days for violating his conditional discharge for attempted seventh-degree criminal possession of a controlled substance. He was arrested in May in Lockport with crack cocaine in his possession.

Chapman said he??s not going back to crack, but in a lengthy argument with Watson, he defended his use of marijuana and his drinking as good for those around him.

Watson said, ??They like him when he??s drugged up better. He??s easier to get along with.? But he repeatedly urged Chapman to comply with the requirement for drug counseling.

Chapman said he could obtain prescription drugs for his problems, but ??nobody can guarantee they??re safe.?

??You think marijuana??s the safer drug?? Watson asked.

??I have 30 years?? experience,? Chapman replied.