I've been trying to take your advice and get used to it, embrace it..but I can't

I feel like I'm a ghost, floating everywhere. I'm not sure how..monks find this useful. All its done is made me philosophically obsessed (because its psychologically brought many new perspectives toward the surface).

The bottom line is I have no more happiness in my life, I'm completely drained. Great for the shamans that enjoy feeling this way, I honestly don't. I had goals/dreams, now everything's gone.

I don't feel alive..I feel...undead.