For the past 4 months, I've been going through post traumatic stress from the first time I smoked marijuana. My guess? I just wasn't ready for it.

These past four months, I've felt as if I've been suffering in a very cruel psychological way. I understand that this is something that the board/community isn't used to dealing with too often, but if there is someone out there who can relate, or even just understand what I'm going through and give me any words of comfort regarding it, I would appreciate it very very much. Keep in mind that what I wrote is quite long [and pretty private, it took a bit of courage to post it up here]; don't overestimate though, I would imagine the readings to be done within 15-20 minutes time.

Basically, the experience itself was this:
-Smoked out of a Bubbler several times (my first time)
-Had a "bad high"
-Lasted several hours
-Woke up in a dream-like state
-"Munchies" lasted a good 20-30 days

I've included three documents in this post. The first I wrote about 2 1/2 - 3 months after the event. The second I wrote about 2 weeks after that. And the third I just finished writing a few moments ago. I provided 2 versions of each, one for Microsoft Word 2007, and the other for 97-2003; for compatibility reasons.

(click a format to view the file in, to download)
Document 1: [Word 2007] [Word97 - 2003]
This first document explains my experiences/observations from before, during, and after the event, up till about 1 month ago.

Document 2 [Word 2007] [Word97 - 2003]
This second document was written when I thought I had a revelation. I tried to identify what it is that bothers me (as every post traumatic case involves these "triggers", that would ultimately be the cause of my DP/DR).

Document 3 [Word 2007] [Word97 - 2003]
I finished this final document a few moments before the submitting of this post. It encompasses all my current problems that I think need to be resolved, this is the document to really pay attention to, while keeping the others in mind.

I discovered that I cannot do this alone no matter how hard I try, I am really in need of some help(everyone needs help sometime), and I would do whatever I can to repay your kindness; yes, its that bad, I feel that disoriented. I don't expect much - if any - people to read those documents, and thats fine, I'd understand; but for those that do, you have no idea how much you could help, and I thank you very much.

Please make sure you thoroughly read and understand all documents (especially the third) before giving err..blunt advice. The worst thing you could do is give me a statement that I may have this very rare psychological disorder onset by the marijuana; I'm agnostic, I believe many things are possible xD

Again, Thank you.. and I really, really appreciate all those who try to help
scriber02 Reviewed by scriber02 on . Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome sparked by marijuana (sativa) For the past 4 months, I've been going through post traumatic stress from the first time I smoked marijuana. My guess? I just wasn't ready for it. These past four months, I've felt as if I've been suffering in a very cruel psychological way. I understand that this is something that the board/community isn't used to dealing with too often, but if there is someone out there who can relate, or even just understand what I'm going through and give me any words of comfort regarding it, I would Rating: 5