Something.....Something strange just happened. Brenda had been wanting to talk to me, and I kept telling her no. Well, last night I talked to her on the phone for a second (that conversation).
This morning she wanted to talk, and I said no, I don't want to. Finally, I gave in, I talked to her.

I told her that weed is just a natural balancer for me. Instead of taking pills or synthetic man made stuff to try to solve my problems, I'd rather smoke weed that's from the earth, and from God. When I smoke, or when I know I CAN smoke, don't even have to be stoned, I realize that the world is worth so much to me. That life's too short to be sad and depressed and angry all the time. She said I have to learn to feel that without weed. I said I know, but that's not going to happen NOW. Maybe in the future, but not now. I told her I'm still going to smoke, and that as long as I'm home or in A home, not out driving or trying to be stupid, I should have the right to.
I also told her that I think it's ridiculous they're pressing Battery charges against me, and she actually agreed. She's going to call the prob officer on Monday to talk about that, then she wants to hear what the judge has to say about the possession charges. She might even try to get me off (she knows the judge too, =/ ) with a more lenient punishment.

She is going to allow me to smoke but she doesn't want to know about it. I can leave my stuff out, I don't have to hide it, but she doesn't want me to say, "Hey, I smoked last night." Likewise, she isn't going to answer any questions. I also said I think I owed it to her to try harder in school, so I'm going to. She said that would be great.

So, after this long, "arduous" journey, I think I may have finally found my destination. Before in our family, we had always screamed at each other, always unable to talk. We finally talk to each other, the first time in 17 years, and it almost all works out OKAY.

I just wanted to thank you guys so much. But, I would've given up on life two weeks ago had it not been for you guys. I actually didn't think this topic would be successful at all.

Anyway, thank you guys so much. I'll keep you updated when we hear from the judge etc etc.