I've been neglecting my own thread, and I apologize. All of you have spoken honest and kind words. After reading this, I've stepped back and thought about life on a slightly deeper level.

My nephrologist told me yesterday that I only have 50% kidney function left.... been sick since I was 5 and I've been waiting for this day to come. I can't tell you the problem I had because only a couple hundred people have had it and it would narrow out my identity (paranoia kicking in). Yesterday was very dismal.

I literally took a chill pill today (prescribed) and have laid off the herb except for on weekends, and between classes today I listened to the "release therapy" cd by Ludacris. Paraphrasing a lyric: I grew up a f*ckin screw up, got introduced to real life, and then I grew up.

In other words... my mind is how I make it. If I can be cheerful after hearing I need a kidney biopsy and may have to start dialysis... I'm not gonna let SH*T bother me! I've got to learn to trust people more in everyday situations and realize they AREN'T out to use me... and if they are... I'll deal with that when/if it happens.

On a side note, I'll have my associates degree in Business Admin/Marketing (2 seperate degrees) in May and should be done with my three Bachelor's degrees (Bus. Admin, Bus. Marketing, Accounting, and a minor in Economics) in a year and a half!!! :jointsmile:

All health problems aside, I believe things are on the up and up. After all... it's how you see the world that influences how the world sees you, right?

You guys/gals are great! Thank you so much for trying to help me out, and you really have. If you ever need anything, please ask!

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