I remember your post from before and i'm proud of you for having the courage to be honest and stand by your beliefs. The truth hurts, in many more ways then one. Personally, i have weed but i don't have contentment, the only thing that felt like that for me was being with someone, i've learned painfully and through lonliness and rejection what my priorities really are. We've had threads like sex or weed and i would now say i'd prefer a women over weed. Not because of sex, that was an example. I'd prefer to have both though so i'm still fighting for my dream, it sounds so stupid, i just wanna smoke in peace with a g/f, it sounds like you do too. Perhaps she isn't 'the one'