t4dr: Thanks for the post, could have written it myself. I live a life, very similar to you and understand, only too well!!!

I doubt you are 'addicted'! You use your med resourcefully. I have a true addict brother and a friend. Believe me, you have a bit to go! A true addict, cannot stop token til it is all gone. Can't save it until the evening, due to price; but you (and I) can!

I do hope a day comes I find one that makes me laugh as much as I did when I was in college and did not need it, do dumb things and party all the time! I was always a happy drunk or mj user. Now, I can't laugh for the pain or fear it will drop in and spoil a good time!

My hope that you will get better will always be with you!:thumbsup: