dude, i know how that is, i have been told that my one friend does plan to quit smoking due to their pursuance of an addictions counselor as a career, i hope she does well, but at the same time i hope she fails because she is the coolest ever. And then my other friend who is one of my main hookups is going to college, and my contact with said person is going to probably be cut, against my will, but will be. But luckily though one of my previous friends from days way past is back, and he and some of my other friends are actually growing, so i have a constant hookup, they have some blueberry strain preparing for a winter harvest, so i cant really wait till christmas this year, moreso than usual. And i do have quite a little stash of seeds, so i will never truely be unable, other than the limiting factors of not being able to grow right now.

but, i feel that at one point in all of our lives we reach a point where we ask ourselves, what is the point? And for atleast a short while most of us will be smoke free, some of us will return to the ganj, others will never look back, and some will occasionally dip their toes in the fountain of happiness.

but whatever makes the people around us the best they think they are is what is really important. People are selfish inherently, no-one actually desires change like that happening to the people they know, but they wont actually try to sabatoge them, most of the time atleast, because while we are all selfish, we all are levelheaded, afterall smoking makes you a better person, even if you've only done it once, for it is an experience afterall, and the more you experience the more you are.