i understand what you mean. ive wanted to smoke sometimes, and when i go to smoke ill usually take a long time to prepare, especially with my bong. Like ill usually give it a quick rinse. Clean out the ashes from the previous bowl, that kind of such. Then ill take a meticulously long time to pack it, almost playing tetris with each weed bit going to a certain spot, not that it even matters to me, but it gives me something to focus on, then ill finish packing the bowl, and set my loaded bong down. And watch tv or even do something not weed related for several minutes, pretty much ignoring the fact that i just pack a bowl. Then ill take a single hit. And relax for the next 10 minutes, and take another one, and then i realize, i packed more than i really wanted or needed, and sometimes, ill even let it set while i go to work, or have it ready for a wake n bake in the morning, though i usually pack up another bowl after finishing a started one and smoke it completely.

And i also know what you mean about not smoking. Lately ive been broke as ive ever been, and i have smoked all of about 2 times in the last 3 weeks myself, which helps cause im looking for a new job. But i remember the few days after smoking would always be centered around my want to smoke, not even cause it was addictive, but cause it is something i do when i get bored, i live in podunk nowhere, and i get bored a lot.

but i plan on buying an 8th before i go visit my pops this weekend, maybe get some travel smokage in, you never know, i may hit the headshop up in morgantown while im there.