I'd have to say that it's my mom who is the psychic vampire that influenced me. And the ability sorta passed on to me, and of course I used it for my own twisted enjoyment as much as I could (as much as I thought I could).

But in recent years I've found more peace and I've got most of the dark urges under control. But I believe that equilibrium/balance is the best state of being, with great enlightenment and tranquility there must exist great turmoil and chaos. I've seen the downfalls of too much "good", it usually leads to narrow-minded self righteousness. Trying to keep a balance is a daunting task. Damn me for being a Libra with the freakin scales.... It runs along the same lines as the "split" mind you mentioned, Coelho. I am my own best friend AND worst enemy. Nothing's perfect, that's why we should not strive to make things so; it is the imperfections that define perfection.

I'll try to check out that link later. Sometimes I don't want to develop any abilities... I could easily slip back into my darker half and wreak havoc. I'll have to stabalize the balance of good and bad in me first, hopefully meditation will help with that.