Hey guys,
I have been reading some of the posts and threads and decided it was time to post my story. Its a long one haha. Some background information: I have generalized anxiety disorder and haven't been treated for it really. This was 2 years ago. I used a bill piece that was found on the ground, but was thoroughly clean. This was my first high. I thought that when I was smoking before I was getting high but clearly I wasn't. This was maybe by 10th time smoking.

Okay, so I was at my friends house taking hits from a bong with him. I took a big hit and felt like I was going to throw up. Eventually, that feeling stopped and I was just chilling outside. Im just looking at my friends shadow not realizing what Im doing, when it hits me like a ton of bricks. Suddenly, I feel like im spinning reallllly fast. I asked them if i was spinning and there like no wtf are you talking about. Now, I'm screaming "What is going on" like a hundred times. I hear these bird noises that keep repeating in my head. I look at the 3 people that were there and it looked like a picture. So they take me inside, and that this point I think im dying for sure. I was telling them to call the police and shit. Eventually they calm me down but im still scared as shit, while my friend is enjoying his high from the same weed (so it wasnt laced... right?) My heart felt like it was beating in my throat for a bit. I sit down where the 2 girls were calming me down and I was drinking some water. I go in the family room lie down on the couch and just chill. I thought my friend's, who was sitting next to me, skin was turning green and he was turning into a lizard. Maybe half an hour later he tells me that before I was balling my eyes out. I clearly did not feel that or notice. But at the time I was really freaking shit. The high wore off, and I went back to my house and feel asleep. I woke up and everything loooked very zoomed in.

For the next 2 weeks, I was having very bad panic attacks for anything that related to weed. I told my parents, and they took it fine. They took me to a therapist for my panic attacks and I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. I have been on citalopram (celexa) since. Since that high, I have recently smoked twice, but a veryyyyy tiny amount so that I wouldnt get high.

Now I have an urge to start smoking again. Will I still have those attacks? What can I expect? I have this guy who will sell my weak weed, is that a good idea? My biggest fear since than is hallucinating, and that everything is a hallucination.

Since than, it has been a hellish 2 years filled with anxiety and paranioa.

What do u recommend?

Thanks and Sorry for the long post :P

John
JohnGreen23 Reviewed by JohnGreen23 on . Yet Another Panic Attack Thread Hey guys, I have been reading some of the posts and threads and decided it was time to post my story. Its a long one haha. Some background information: I have generalized anxiety disorder and haven't been treated for it really. This was 2 years ago. I used a bill piece that was found on the ground, but was thoroughly clean. This was my first high. I thought that when I was smoking before I was getting high but clearly I wasn't. This was maybe by 10th time smoking. Okay, so I was at my Rating: 5