Quote Originally Posted by illnillinois
FINALLY after 3 1/2 years, my wife and I figured out my smoking or lack of was the problem.

We both see a great change in who i am when I am medicated.

When I run out its DR, JACKAL and MR HYDE. Its horrible and I hate it. And swag, who knows what it is, if it good or not.
I share a similar problem with you illnillnois. I've only been smoking for about 6 months now but I've been having anger problems all my life. Weed calms me down, just as it does for you. A couple months back I was super addicted, smoking weed constantly because I believed it kept me calm and in control of my anger. But like you, when I don't have it or im not medicated, its the INCREDIBLE HULK x10!!!!

What i've learned from this is that it's all a mental thing. I was really dependent on weed to keep me "happy" in a way, and it really ruined a lot of things around me. But now I try to do my best to tell myself that I can do without it and that everything will still be okay if I don't have weed. So my advice to you is that, next time if you happen to be dry and you start to freak out, just take a deep breathe and tell yourself everything will be ok. You will be okay.

Since weed can be pretty expensive in the long run, I've found that this has helped me the most in my darkest times of need. But other then that, HAPPY SMOKING!!! Smoke on my friend and enjoy life! :rasta: