My story and how I'm addicted to marijuana, help..

[NextLineIsMine]

Smoking is obviously getting in your way, quit it or continue to perpetuate the cycle youve got yourself into

[Ganj]

Another piece of helpful advice. As humans, we are motivated by reason. In the story of Travis Wolfkill, sometimes our reasons that compel us to action can be misguided. However that should not stop us from giving ourselves a purpose in life. We will make mistakes and we will find that our reasons need to be refined. Know what you want and take the driver's seat in your life.

[netdog]

Being high on anything all day every day is not going to do anyone any good. Too much of pretty much anything is usually destructive, partake of all things in moderation my friends.

I can relate a bit, I dropped out of high school at 16, worked minimum wage jobs until my 20's... Never went to college. Smoked since I was about 15 and tried about every drug out there. That was back in the 70's. I was in a bad place and wasting my life. If I only knew then what I know now....

Your life is never over until it's over. In your 20's you don't even have a full grasp of what your life can be.

I wised up and started my own business at about 25 after many low pay jobs, a landscaping business. Sure it failed as most businesses do but I learned from it.

Several attempts and a few more low paying jobs and 10 years and I'm pulling in 6 figures from a company I started with 3 partners and negotiating a sale of the business for 20mil. Now i'm still pulling in a 6 figure salary from the company I started when I left that one.

I've reinvented myself several times in my life. I never do any one thing for more than about 5 years before it gets too stale and I start losing motivation and get lazy, then I must go do something different and interesting. Usually risking all I have to go do it, but it keeps me sane and happy and challenges me.

I'm 50 now and about to go reinvent and start over again... I'll be learning a trade that interests me and this time doing it as a one man business.

Anyone can do it, and at a young age it's even easier, but not if you hide by escaping into drug haze and video games.

You ask what would I do? I would get on top of that anxiety, and get control of it. Face that fear and defeat it. Anxiety is fear, a conditioned response that can be retrained, though you may need help to do it.

Find something that interests you, that you can be passionate about, something you can wake up in the morning and can't wait to go do, and get a job related to it. Learn all you can and move on to making your own business doing it. Use pot as a reward after accomplishing something rather than to escape life.

All you need in life is anything you can learn to do that someone will pay you enough money to live on for doing. Better if you enjoy doing it. That's it. After that it's all what you choose to do with your time.

Try to train yourself to not fear anything, or stress over anything, because in truth whatever you fear or stress over is usually no more real than you convince yourself it is, and fear and stress never help any situation, they only make it worse.

If you want to start, try this... Every day do at least one productive thing, apply for a job or clean house, just one thing productive that gives you some sense of accomplishing something. Then do one thing for someone else, something nice for someone that they will appreciate. Just one, every single day, don't toke till you've done it and things will start looking up real fast.

[Euphoric7]

Take a break from weed. Enough time for you to "forget" what it's like to be stoned. During this time you WILL (I repeat) WILL need to find a hobby to replace the weed such as chewing gum or something.
You can use this time to get your life in order with your debt and things. Once you're out of the hole, develop yourself as a person. Being high all the time isn't a personality trait and you need to find something to define YOU.
Once you've done the following...

• Solved your financial problems as much as possible
• Defined yourself as a person with something else
• Forgotten what being high even feels like
• Experienced naturally generated "reward" feelings (like compliments on hard work)

after this has been accomplished, if you still want to... you can try smoking with friends to ADD to fun (not make it). Set limits for yourself and be STRICT to not cross them. This will prevent you from ending up where you are now. One last little tip: use weed as a "reward" for yourself. Like, if you run a mile around your street, use it to congratulate yourself.
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That's about all I can tell you right now. This took quite a while to type, I hope I get some nice rep for this. And good luck to you!

[inbud]

the above advice is golden,
i have been on and off all my life (all kinds of drugs)
and i have to say, you can still go back to college, grades dont mean crap, your old ones i mean. what you do next is what matters, you can go back to college.
You can do with your life what You want, just knowing you have a problem is the first step to a cure.

Good luck bud, i really mean that, pot is not everything, sex is not everything, life is everything!

[beachguy in thongs]

If your literary skills are decent, I suggest reading Napoleon Hill's, "Think and Grow Rich". You'll have direction after your first reading.

[Weedhound]

Wow...some REALLY great thoughts written here. The fact that not everyone is the same as far as addictions go is a HUGE truth......so thanks again BG for reminding us that just because you don't see it does NOT mean it isn't there.

The point about making choices is excellent as well. Despite what you think chrons you ARE making choices about your cannabis use quite a few tiimes a day.....every day.

If you are scared to be without it then you indeed have a problem. (And for all those who say pot CAN'T be addictive....think about cigerettes. Addiction doesn't mean you'll fall over in a seizure if you can't get whatever it is you "need" for goodness sakes!! Logic people!! )

Addictions are MUCH better fought in support groups. I'd bet 100 to 1 there's one for cannabis or hash or something in your area. Look around and go see what's its about. Might indeed be the direction you are looking for.

Good luck.

[Lit Up]

I, as netdog put it, reinvented myself once already. I did it when i was 20 yrs. old. Similar to your current situation only in mine I had thought I knocked up a girl. So, I did the smart thing, didn't go back to college after my freshman year, went back home, got a job, moved in with her.

BAD IDEA!! - long story short found out it "may" not be mine, we split, I stayed working. Anyhoo, pot was draggin me down and I had dreams and all that shit.

One Sunday afternoon, ironically enough on shrooms, I had a revelation. On Monday, after work, I headed to the gym. Now I'm from a small town so I had to drive like 16 miles to the next town. I tossed my piece and like half an eighth in the ditch. I didn't touch weed for almost 7 months when I was back in college.

I got back in shape, dropped fifty pounds (265 after fr. yr./ 215 when I went back), went back to school. Coming up on my Sr. year in football, I will be starting, I'm doing good in school sort of. I just turned 23 this month.

Anyway, I've learned that it will take time and you won't just be able to wake up tomorrow and have your problems fixed. But, what you do when you wake up tomorrow can be a damn good start. It's summertime, start looking at community college's in your area or further if you want to get away.(Your friends sound like they can influence you a little, my friends back home did too but that's why I love them)

I'd say that's a good step. It's hard to fine a good paying job where your not busting your ass all day. Go back to school find something that interests you and go for it. But for god's sake don't be a teacher, trust me.

The kid wasn't mine. But I was there to see her born and Baptized. I came up with her name so I'm pissed I can't use it anymore. I found out she wasn't mine when she was 6 months old. For those 6 months I was her daddy and loved her so much. But, me and her mom are both better off it being this way.

Shit, I'm writing a book.

Peace

[swice1]

Hang in there buddy, and remember the addiction is only in your head, if you were fine before you started smoking weed then you'll be fine after, you don't need it to survive.

I just recently stopped after smoking steadily for a year and a half, I started feeling depressed and felt like I was losing my real self, but am keeping myself busy riding bikes, learning guitar and getting back in shape.

Best of luck
-swice1

[marijuanaisgood]

ya i hear bro. my situation is kinda worse because i have no job still live with my dad(mom split) no car, no money and all i do is smoke weed all day and night play games eat sleep everyday, execpt im going to school at night(adult school) because i fucked up when i was in high school. im personally not addicted to it but i just like doing it. but now im starting to cut back a little on smoking and playing sports and getting active and meeting new people at partys. i recommend u do the same go out make friends. i garantee it will make u happier:thumbsup: