Hope everyone had a nice 420 first off :thumbsup:

To start out, I've been smoking for 3 years, everyday. My habit started in college, I also withdrew out of my second semester, I wont blame the pot, but I began having extreme anxiety and stopped going to class.

I came home and continued smoking everyday, and more since I didn't have a job.

I then found a job, and began working full-time at 12 an hour as an entry level contractor. I continued this job for about 8 months, and after 8 months, no health benefits still, which were promised and very important (am I 20 now) I made the decision to quit after a lot of BS on top of it.

I manage to stay high all day everyday now still, even without a job. Either friends, or the rare dry bowl hits, and occasionally finding coin to buy my own.

Now it's been about 2 months of me doing nothing but smoking and living back home. My parents remain clueless about my smoking, but are very disappointed in me and they think I am very depressed.

I'm going to be 21 soon now, and need some change, but after smoking so much for so long, I kind feel as if I lost who I was? I don't do any of the things I used to do, smoking all the time has made me somewhat numb to emotions, and hard to relate in social environments. I suffer from extreme anxiety which was treated with xanax, but I am a firm NON-believer in these crazy chemicals, so I put them aside.

My days now consist of smoking, eating, sleeping, internet, video games, music, in one giant slow stoned cycle.

Now some may think it's awesome, but it's not, I have no car, I have no money, I'm in debt with credit cards, no prior work for a resume, I pretty much turned into what I never wanted to be, and I'm lost.

I'm writing this to you all hoping someone has experienced something of the like, or thinks maybe the pot is working against me now?

I've never taken a break from pot, as many times as I've tried, and I am honestly a bit afraid

I now feel like I've missed the boat to life, and am stuck in the rocks with nothing. I don't want to go flip burgers, my grades from college previously will affect me ever going back to school.

What would you do?
chrons Reviewed by chrons on . My story and how I'm addicted to marijuana, help.. Hope everyone had a nice 420 first off :thumbsup: To start out, I've been smoking for 3 years, everyday. My habit started in college, I also withdrew out of my second semester, I wont blame the pot, but I began having extreme anxiety and stopped going to class. I came home and continued smoking everyday, and more since I didn't have a job. I then found a job, and began working full-time at 12 an hour as an entry level contractor. I continued this job for about 8 months, and after 8 Rating: 5