part of the journey of being a mother is the fact that when a baby comes into our lives there are certain sacrifices that need to be made... perhaps you need to re-evaluate whats more important, a habit or the health or your child.
that being said,
i certainly hope for the sake of your baby´s development that you arent breastfeeding... !!!
im not condemning the fact that you like toke, i think that goes without saying for all of us in this forum,
but what in the world are you doing smoking that much when you have a BABY you should be focusing on instead of getting high?!

"I wish I felt like I could quit, but I don't have benefits to go to a doctor and have them prescribe me some kind of anti-anxiety medicine. Without bud I feel anxious, edgy, irritable, worrisome, paranoid, restless...."

didnt you quit when you were pregnant?
what is making it so hard now that this new life is here?
anti-anxiety meds only cover up the anxiety.
you need to take a deep and honest look at yourself and find the roots to what is causing you to feel anxious, worried etc.
yoga works wonders. find a new hobby or something...

with something a serious as a court case and an infant in the house...those two things should be enough to want to stay clean...

the only 100% fullproof way to test clean is to stay clean.