Im so damn mad!! Well still dirty and now going back to that damn HELL HOLE!! I feel like I just want to die. So unfair being punished for something I did in the past! How is that fair?!! How can they do this to ppl. Getting ready to start a new job and now I wont even be able to cause Ill be in fuckin jail. What kind of sense does that make?! You have to pay for every little thing. 12 bucks per test, court fees, jails stays, which will be my third, probation cost! How the hell am I supposed to pay and I cant even get a job and keep it cause of them and this damn shit!! I mean I got the job suppose to had started next week, and Lord knows I need the money now more than ever!! How the the does one become a productive citizen and continue their life when they keep doing this shit, I mean to just be snatched away from your life like that after you've paid your debt to society! And they wonder y ppl do desperate things trying to detox! Ppl who steal and kill dont go through shit like this!! Once they do their time its over, why do a fucking weed head like this? I mean I wasnt sellin it to kids or anything, I didnt kill any1, it was just for personal use! Who was I hurting but myself? Is it just me or is just a little to extrem for a fucking weed head. Maybe Im over reacting? Am i? I just feel like im having a nervous break down. Walking around scared to death cause I dont know when I will be clean, and just dont want to keep going through this shit! Now Im starting to feel there is no justice. I have lost all faith in our judicial system. Im sorry to keep bitchin just really tired and need to vent.