I don't know how much help we can be... you admitted its not a bad drug and don't mind it that much when people smoke it... but on the other hand you have some strange horrible feeling when a girl you like smokes it... just makes no sense at all... if you were someone who thought it was a demon drug then it would, but....



and like someone else said, i know this "isn't an option" but smoking some for yourself would most likely be beneficial in my honest opinon...