Don't know if this helps any, but here goes....

GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING!

If your attention is focused on anything, playing music, digging in the garden, painting your walls, whatever you're into, and you're too preoccupied to think about anything else, those feelings of self examination can be put off until you're ready to handle them. I think we all ponder our place in the universe way too much, and idleness is the page on which self pity is written. Tear it out and toss it in the can. Whatever you're good at, it's in demand somewhere. Find that place, and you won't have to be depressed, you'll be way too busy for that kind of nonsense.

Have you ever considered the Merchant Marine?

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