I've tried meditating, in fact my dad has been doing it every day since he was like 15 years old so I learned from him, but when i try to meditate it seem to use my minds filter to block EVERYTHING not just everday bullshit but just plain everything, learn to deal with my broken filter and learn from it, I want to understand what it is that I'm feeling. This lack of importance of life and feeling of a greater meaning, I think its what others would refer to as God or something but I can't even force myself to believe in "God" in the convetional sense but as just more of a divine truth not in the corporial sense but something much harder to grasp, its like I'm on the verge of either full blown enlightenment or full blown insanity if only there was a way to convey what I'm experiancing to everyone because I don't think literary mechanics or verbal expressions do it any justice whatsoever.

Well sorry to ramble on but I'm going to go to sleep now, I'll try and post some more tomorrow. See you all later! Bye!!!
daZenfmeister Reviewed by daZenfmeister on . Anyone else have an impaired sense of time and reality? After smoking lots and lots of weed in short amounts of time,trying HBWR seeds, salvia and being on percocet for almost a month my sense of time and reality is shifted to an enormous degree I like to think of it in the terms that Aldous Huxley put them at the very end of Doors of perception ( i dont have the book with me but it goes something like this) ...and he who has been through the Door in the wall will be much more wise, but less cock-sure of himself. and other notions to that same tome. Rating: 5