Well imo just try and think as hard as you can if you've moved in a better direction, if not then cannabis might not be for you. But I doubt that. I mean look at me, I'm a loser a fucking dumbass piece of crap computer nerd loser. And after went through that 'Door in the Wall' I know that I may always be a nerd loser on the outside but my mind is more complex and beautiful than any asshole with a fast car and lots of money. So the most likely case is that your shift in personality is not either up or down but just more to the side if you get what I'm saying.