Man... i feel much like you... im only 25, but surely i feel like i already had lived some 70-80 years... my granpa is 86 and i think very interesting how only me and him share some views about life, as there is a gap of some 60 years between us...
And like you my physical appearance makes me look far older... happily i dont suffer from any pain, and reading the posts of some of you makes me very grateful for this.

I think it is related to both weed and (leaving aside any false modesty) the fact we are more intelligent than most people... ive noticed that whenever i was high i would notice things about the world, the life, and anything in general, that it would have taken FAR longer to notice if i were sober... maybe several years... i feel like if during this 3 years of smoking ive lived (or at least learned) several decades of living...
Most people usually are too immersed in this worlds "illusions", like partying, picking chicks, then after it working, paying bills to have cars, houses, etc, all this ultimately meaningless things that are regarded (by usual people) as being The Life. And so most people takes several years of living to realize (some never do) the meaningless of it all, while us already realized this... and thats why we feel like old people... cause in some ways we already are old as they.

Anyway, i think its not a reason for being worried, but a reason to be glad. Im sure almost any old man would love to have their wisdom of age and their bodies of young. The old mans may have done everything usual people would, but it is not everything people can do... in fact, what usual people do is only a very small range of everything a human person can actually do... but most people simply does not know this, and wastes one entire lifetime doing the same useless things just because everybody else does it also...

In my own case, i already realized that i have no more real links to the usual human world, as it has lost all its appeal to me, and use this detachment to concentrate myself in another more useful things, like learning about my mind, alterated states of perception, meditation, energy manipulation, etc, that are the doors to all the another worlds (besides the human usual world) available to our human possibilities...

I think the most important thing is not to indulge oneself in being tired... like... oldness is not the same as tiredness. I like to think im an old man who had the opportunity to get (again) a far younger body, with another lifetime ahead... so i must enjoy it and make the best use of it... if im 25 and my mind is like 80, how old will be my mind when i actually were 80? Maybe older than 1000... have you ever thought how wise and powerful would be someone 1000 years old?

So, my friend, dont let yourself down... you can really become one like Gandalf the Grey, if you really wish so... :thumbsup:

PS. I dont know if i already recommended you any Castanedas books... as i do it for almost everybody... anyway, i think A Separate Reality would be very useful to you...
Coelho Reviewed by Coelho on . I'm gettin' too old for this shit. (How about you?) Technically I'm only 22 years old, but I'd say my avatar more accurately reflects how I look inside. Really, I don't feel like I'm some young guy in the prime of his youth. I don't have any interest in dance clubs and parties, youthful pop culture, picking chicks up at bars, or generally doing things that energetic young people do. My hair is a salt and pepper mix of white and black. My spine has degenerative arthritis and I have more aches and pains than most old guys. I'm already Rating: 5