The Roman Catholic curch is a false idol. you have all the right commitment in all the wrong places.

Look not to the works of corrupt men, but to the true bible.

The WORD of god is not written or spoken, it is in the every action ofLIFE.
Nature is the true bible, Earth our true god, death, the true son of god.

the sun, our god's god, the unvierse, heven.

When we die, we return to the earth, and some day, when the earth is in the final days of it's life, it too will return to heven and conjoin withit's god at the center of the galaxy where thecycle starts anewwith new lessons to learn and new people.

Look to nature for the answers to life's questions, not to corrupt works of manipulative men.