Marijuana makes me a lot more passive than I'd normally be, I think. Part of why I use it is to calm the anxiety and the OCD tendencies I normally have, and it works quite well. However, as of last night, I think it might be working TOO well for me.

Last night, two of my clients started behaving completely inappropriately, in ways that were potentially harmful to me. It turns out that I was safe the entire time, but while it was happening I did NOT know that. So either I had really good intuition about the actual level of danger I was in or my sweet Mary J is dulling my senses/instincts.

I'm not sure if the marijuana is expanding my mind or numbing it. I think I'd going with the first explanation rather than the second. The entire time the incident was occurring, I was literally thinking "Why am I not reacting? Anyone else would be visibly reacting with fear and agression by now in an attempt to save their life." And everytime I would start to think that, something in my head would go "No, no, just watch. Just keep waiting, and you'll see that everything is okay."

In the time I've been smoking, I've not had a panic attack at all. Here, yes, I was safe and worrying might not have done me any good, BUT I think it was a situation where I *should* have worried, pot or no pot. I guess what I'm saying is.... are the panic attacks worth me being able to quickly react to dangerous circumstances? I felt like my animal instincts were being squashed, and I know that in the .00000000001% of the time when your reation time quite literally can affect whether you live or die, those are absolutely vital to have. If this had swung the other way around, then my not reacting could have ended with me dead.

I guess my other question would be........ how do ya'll deal with someone who is behaving in ways that are so far outside of social norms that you can't even begin to understand them? Is it better to be passive and let things work itself out or should I, as a worker, have attempted to make them end their inappropriate behaviors?
bluebird Reviewed by bluebird on . Can something work TOO well? Marijuana makes me a lot more passive than I'd normally be, I think. Part of why I use it is to calm the anxiety and the OCD tendencies I normally have, and it works quite well. However, as of last night, I think it might be working TOO well for me. Last night, two of my clients started behaving completely inappropriately, in ways that were potentially harmful to me. It turns out that I was safe the entire time, but while it was happening I did NOT know that. So either I had really good Rating: 5