Heyy nice fuckin job Jimmy! Just giving yourself that reward can be the difference between sticking it out and giving up.

I was a big kid, and I've lost a grand total of 100 lbs since my junior year of highschool. I lost about 60 of it while in highschool, and the rest slowly in college. It's been a process 5 years in the making, but every once in a while il put a few more pounds back on (not necessarily from munchies, although that does help lol) so now it's just time to get rid of those last 20 or so pounds.

The last ones are the hardest.

Onto my fasting... The gym this morning was great, felt slight effects of lung-healing on the tredmill, but I powered through and did my jog without walking any.

Definitely bong-searching is keeping me motivated to my fast. I literally have not had one craving for weed. I think I've finally conquered my irrational thoughts.

Deep into a spell of smoking a lot, sometimes I find myself thinking "i better smoke now, b/c who knows when the next time im going to smoke is", but having a goal in mind... not smoking until March 22, it makes it that much easier. It's not like I'm breaking for an undisclosed ammount of time, I know no matter what I'll be taking a puff in a month (granted my dealer doesn't crap out on me lol)

This is the first time I really feel in control. 'Course that may change in a week, but let's hope not!