A Scanner Darkly by Philip K Dick. Anybody ever seen the movie or read the book? Incredible, incredible story, semi-based on Dick's actual life. Very powerful book, I finished it in two days and I highly recommend it.

"The pain, so unexpected and undeserved had for some reason cleared away the cobwebs. I realized I didn't hate the cabinet door, I hated my life... My house, my family, my backyard, my power mower. Nothing would ever change; nothing new could ever be expected. It had to end, and it did. now in the dark world where I dwell, ugly things, and surprising things, and sometimes little wondrous things, spill out in me constantly, and I can count on nothing."