Quote Originally Posted by ADM
I forgot to mention i've been out of maryjane for about 6 days now, I just had an irregular heart beat about an hour ago

Most people experience some type of irregular heart beat at some point. It's not uncommon at all. I had a weird episode last summer and since then I've had a strong heart beat. Meaning when I'm sitting perfectly still and holding my breath, I can actually see and feel my heart beat, moving my entire body. Sort of hard the explain, but it's strong. I've recently been easing myself back into physical activity, especially cardiovascular activities.

I urge everyone else that experience Anxiety, TRY WORKING OUT. From my experience, working out, doing a physical activity, getting the blood pumping, is more effective at relaxing me than any drug i've taken. It took me a while, but I finally realized that I had let myself go physically. I put on some pounds and was eating terribly. Since then, I've been trying to lead a healthier life. Eating better, working out 4 days a week, trying to quit cigarettes.

Since I've started working out i've felt more confidence, which has REALLY helped my anxiety. I'm the most confident i've been in my entire life. I think I was depressed when I had my "epiphany" you could call it. I don't have that body type that stays fit whether I sit on my ass or not. If I don't exercise, my life goes to shit. That was the realization of my life. I have to continue to exercise and keep up with my health for the rest of my life.

I had never thought about it while I was in high school because I was always doing something, whether conditioning in the off-season for a sport, playing a sport, or playing a sport with my friends in the yard. Once I graduated and everyone went their seperate ways, I became more lazy and all the physical activity that had become the norm for me, ceased. Upon high school graduation, I was in the best shape of my life, since then I had let myself go, considerably. But for how long you let yourself go, it takes just as long to get yourself back. Right now, I'm in the process of getting my self back and I feel like I'm getting close. I'm addicted to exercise, because it seems that is the one thing I seem to have control over these days.

When I'm lifting weights, I have no issues, problems, or naggings, my mind is centered on bettering myself. I get in the zone and block everything and everyone out of my life for the time being. It's my way of relaxing and "getting away from it all". I'll admit it, lately, I've been getting high on endorphins more than THC.

I've also recently gotten into Eastern Thinking as far as the health of my body. I recommend looking into Yoga, Meditations, and other eastern methods.