It is all about balance. Though i was balancing my life while smoking multiple times a day, i knew it was abuse but i didn't care. I justified it anyway i could, why should i deny myself happiness? It's day 5 and i'm thinking about smoking a lot lol. I was offered a joint yesterday and passed. It's hard when your best friends blaze all the time. I dunno what i'm gonna do. I feel like my tolerance is already down enough anyway to feel the true effects. But this has been a valuable lesson for me in discipline. I've proved it to myself, regardless of it were a month or 5 days. I could do it but i think i'm just gonna smoke again now. Moderately. But i'm not gonna buy shit weed anymore just coz i wanna smoke. I'm not gonna go through an
8th every 2 days anymore. I was spending way too much money on a non sustainable substance. I can appreciate sobriety again. It was worth the break. No more smoking before school, i have to give myself the best chance possible and try my best for my education.