Quote Originally Posted by Weedhound
Try reconnecting with something you love.....even if it seems boring at the moment. You have to do what it takes to make life "personal."

The death of someone close to you is a very understandable reason for "disconnecting." Part of that is a time thing.....all wounds blah blah.

As for being a sandspeck on the beach of life....that may be but you only have your little grain to work with. Make it count.
awesome advice...it reminds me of the idea of God. in the sense that you can develop a personal relationship with him, even while you loathe your existence. it's not my idea to convert you into a religion, pb ...i'm more or less just recollecting my thoughts on similar feelings about disconnecting from yourself.

i went to a party the other day and noticed i was very withdrawn from the crowd--i was standing near the door all by myself, my mind was racing at a million miles a second and i never got off my high-horse long enough to really connect with anyone. i haven't been relaxed with myself for a very long time and so i thought about prayer or 'talking to God.' prayer is really just another route to transcendence, like meditation in the way that you attempt to obtain a deeper understanding of yourself and the world around you through contemplating. just talk to someone who will listen. you can even talk to yourself but just be sure you're listening very carefully. i catch myself in my thoughts and learn to move beyond by an unseen force granting guidance, whether it's my own rationalization or not; it's really a neat trick we humans have inherited.
Ganj Reviewed by Ganj on . It's been a rough few weeks Ever since my friend's mom died, I've been beyond depressed... Hell, even before it happened. I find myself focusing more on the inevitablity that we're all going to be a sandspeck in the beach of time, and it feels like everything's just too big for me. I find myself becoming much more disorganized, more tired, I have more pain, and I just don't feel the way I used to. I go from each day thinking "Oh wow, the world's such a beautiful place" to thinking "Nothing really matters, not my Rating: 5