Try reconnecting with something you love.....even if it seems boring at the moment. You have to do what it takes to make life "personal."

The death of someone close to you is a very understandable reason for "disconnecting." Part of that is a time thing.....all wounds blah blah.

As for being a sandspeck on the beach of life....that may be but you only have your little grain to work with. Make it count.