Ever since my friend's mom died, I've been beyond depressed... Hell, even before it happened. I find myself focusing more on the inevitablity that we're all going to be a sandspeck in the beach of time, and it feels like everything's just too big for me.

I find myself becoming much more disorganized, more tired, I have more pain, and I just don't feel the way I used to. I go from each day thinking "Oh wow, the world's such a beautiful place" to thinking "Nothing really matters, not my consciousness, not the leaf on that tree, nothing."

I never used to think like that. The differences in though are not nearly extreme enough to suggest bipolar, and I haven't changed the amount of weed I am smoking. Maybe I have SAD?

I don't know, I really don't.
Purple Banana Reviewed by Purple Banana on . It's been a rough few weeks Ever since my friend's mom died, I've been beyond depressed... Hell, even before it happened. I find myself focusing more on the inevitablity that we're all going to be a sandspeck in the beach of time, and it feels like everything's just too big for me. I find myself becoming much more disorganized, more tired, I have more pain, and I just don't feel the way I used to. I go from each day thinking "Oh wow, the world's such a beautiful place" to thinking "Nothing really matters, not my Rating: 5