"I thought it was supposed to get easier when you worked harder"

it just sucks when everything is going great, then out of nowhere this crap pops up. this always happens. its like a once every other month thing now, and i cant take it. i cant take being questioned on my integrity over and over and over, the same thing again and again. it just makes me dislike her. and she always has a way of making me feel bad about everything. if i get upset when this kind of stuff happens, she always says "see i know you dont care, because whenever i ask about this you always get mad". i dont get mad i just get upset that she doesnt trust me after all this time. then when i say that, she says "you have to earn your trust" what the hell have i been doing the past 2 years?!