I cry when my best friends and brothers die a most tragic and untimely death when I could have done something to stop it. In an instance like that, I cry in front of hundreds of people while delivering the eulogy.



Ashley has been bringing out the "human" in me, and lately I have been finding myself having human emotions. I have never in my life possessed so much unconditional love and so little hate before now. I love nearly every single person on this planet in some way or another, and empathy towards others has recently provoked emotional responses from me. Recently I was up early in the morning waiting for Ashley to come home, and I saw a breaking news accident report. A man had run a red light with his pregnant wife and two young kids in the car, and got T-boned by a road-salting truck. The woman was listed in critical condition when I first heard it(she later died), and her kids were as well. The kids really hurt me on a deep emotional level, but something happening to a pregnant woman cut me and I began to tear up. Something that I still dont expect, but has been happening more lately as I find myself being "humanized."

I cant stand seeing anything happen to children, but the loss of a pregnant woman makes me weep mercilessly in the deepest depths of my soul... I would die a thousand deaths to keep you women safe