I suppose I feel guilty about not being more open with my cann-affair. With family members like my parents I always rationalize that it's for their own emotional sake because they are so outdated and so unable to see mj for what it is.

But if I were a nobler person, I would deal with the consternation on my parents part and eventually it would pass and they might see that weed doesn't change me in any fundamental way.

I just wish they would realize that I changed on my own and as a result soberly decided to smoke mj again, and that mj expedites the process of casting off pretenses and being honest with one's self and to mainstream society. Too many people see mj as something that erodes previously held morals because the person is losing a part of himself, rather than the morals and allegiances being purposefully released because the person realizes things about himself and the world that make social pretenses and facades seem meaningless.

I'll say it again, the only thing I feel guilty about is my own cowardice and fear of the law in not being open and transparent to everyone about my weed hobby. Just like many others, I have attitudes and traits that will help the overall image of mj if I'm only open about it.