I never felt guilty for smoking, even when I was a little freshman. I was nervous and excited but not guilty.

I feel really shitty after my high goes away sometimes though. I feel guilty for when I rationalize my way into buying some more. I feel guilty knowing I'm not doing anything more productive with whatever free time I used to get high. I'm really hate how I don't get anything done when I'm high or after. My problem is that I can't seem to be in possession of weed without smoking it that same day. If I could keep a stash and smoke on weekends or something it would be a lot better for me but I just keep talking myself into it lol.

I know what you mean though.