I smoke alot. I grow my own very potent mj and I blaze it. When I was younger I used to smoke all the time and try to stay stoned 24/7. I took a 5 yr break and grew up. Now I smoke at night and only after I've accomplished my tasks for the day, MJ doesn't make me better socially or give me deeper thoughts, I am me with or without weed. I take it to ease my pain and sleep at night. I take it because I love the communion with nature and the nourishment of something from the earth that my hands have wrought. More power to you for quitting to improve yourself Tim, I understand and college is an important time to learn not just about academia but about your self and the man you will become. In the future if the time is right and you truely did love the plant I think you can come back to it with a better understanding and respect of your self that will transfer into all of the activities you do.