Oh on another note, my social anxiety disorder seems to be cured for the time being. Usually when people come over, some friend of someone in the family, I'll hide in my room downstairs and pray that I don't get forced into a social situation. But yesterday my mom had a friend over and I was the life of the party; she even said what a remarkable change she saw in me.


but I still feel the monster lurking in the back of my head(literally, I can tell that the depression is still there. All I'm doing is simply keeping it in check.)
I know what you mean daihashi, I think most people still have it lingering somewhere back there. Drugs of any sorts, in my experience cover up the problem but don't cure it deep down. But they can bring some needed relief, and in my case provide the energy to tackle these problems and keep moving with my life, rather than hide from them in exhaustion.